Dear Diary,

44./

2012-02-10T16:57:00.004+08:00

Hi! *winks*

Y'know, sometimes I really want to take really nice pictures and post it up here. But I dont have a good camera (except my phone) and that, I'm lazy. Kills everyth now. Someday I will. Heh. Okay, today is a HOT day. Not warm, but HOT.

Wanted to dye my hair just now, but I was indecisive over what colour to put so I didnt. Sigh. Always last minute. I lost my keys yesterday! :'( In th house. I'm sure its in th house somewheree.......... But I still can't find it. Gna set off to work soon, eat staff meal and start working. Somehow, I'm tired yet looking forward. Is this really taking a priority? Hmm.

Anyway, shoutout to my dearest JOANNELIMSHUHUIIIII. HAPPIEBURFDAYZ. Heehee, officially 16 baby ! :* I still wanna celebrate your birthday for manymany years ok, even though I cant meet you today /frowns/ but, confirm will celebrate... In my own way >:) i love you ok. :)

Jessica is coming back from Genting today, hooray!

Thank God for all I have, these friends I have everywhere. Church, Own, Work. Even though I know we might lose contact next time somehow for some people, but I wanna cherish them now, or never. I love how G show me His love through people. Which is what I wanna show others as well. I'm never as good as who they think I am. That isnt my goodness, but His. I'm just living in His image and I want to do that. Someday people will ask, 'where did you get those values from?' I'll tell them, 'From my Father in heaven.' I'm waiting patiently. Cuz, I wouldn't have done it alone. His grace got me by and will get me through.

Ok, gna work now. Sharetea today? Maybe. Bye!

43./

2012-02-09T23:54:00.001+08:00

It'll all be okay. All be okay. I pray and surrender. Letting go, all to You. Bye!

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42./

2012-02-09T23:53:00.001+08:00

Hi.

Hi space, its time when things got hold of me again. I need a clear head now. Remind me of who I'm living for. God, comfort me. Bye!

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41./

2012-02-03T02:12:00.003+08:00

Hi! *winks*

2.15am now, O_O Okay, reason being, I CANT FALL ASLEEP. Or maybe its cause I'm using th desktop but, its been ages since I touched it now. Heh.

Had David's last lg today, (Okay, brief description of him - He is super gentleman, very humble, awesomely giving. A huge blessing for us from G.) I'm not bragging nor anyth but he is really THAT awesome. I love him, as a bro in Christ so much. Th sad reality kicked in during Affirmation. I was like *NUUUUUUU*, I cant imagine not having him together in th LG. Boo. Okaybut, God has greater plans for him to move on, (: Continue to do your best in JC group kkk! See you @ th end of th race.

LOOK AT MY PICTURE ON TOP.

I'm actually feeling ugly just now (cuz I wasnt happy), because it hurts to have people playing with how you feel and lies. Ok, but I'm not emonemo, just also heartbroken to see how lovely friends turn to be someone I don't actually know anymore, ); 180degree turn, manzxxc. BUT, me gna be happiez because I'll stand strong with th Lord~ So I'm PRETTY now. he he.

Gna be working @ 12pm tml, till5pm. Meeting MJ for lunch, provided I'm not late. Ohyes, lemme tell y'all someth. When I tap my EZLink, it went *BEEP*. ohmaigawd, ADULT FARE, whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?!?!?!? I'm still sixteen................... I havent even started school! Why, tell me why. Ok, /exercise mode on/ Alright, gna hit th bed soon, if not I'll just die tml bro.

Listening to KOne's songs again. hee hee. Had an Oldies search just now on Youtube. Great songs that I haven't listened to in awhile. Aww. Alright, its kinda a happy post today. I luv you guyz.

Hi God, I have lotsa things to tell You. LoveYou. Bye!

40./

2012-01-27T01:16:00.001+08:00

Hi. *smiles*

Hoho. LG TODAY WAS AWESUMZ. hehe. Okay thats not th point. I mean its one of th points but notth main point. I REALLY LUB MY WORK FRIENDS GOSH. THANK GOD FOR THEM. :D haha.

Anyway. I dont want a friendship to fade away. Man, I really cannot imagine happening another time. Meh. So many times alrdy. Did I take it for granted? I hope God's working things out. That'll be th best result. I feel guilty. I nv invested enough time for people. I find myself not understanding them much. Its so.. Heartwrenching when friendships fade away. Indescribable feeling but I dread it. Its like, pulling your heart two ways differently. Hmm.

I'm sorry to people out there that I've been a bad friend. I'm sorry for taking y'all for granted cuz I really know sometimes its me who suddenly let go a little and talk lesser. I'm sorry for letting y'all go at times. :(

God, I pray for stronger friendships and I really also wanna disciple my people well. I wanna know them inside out cause I really love them so much. I dont wanna shortchange my sheeps as well. I really love them know.. Ok, I know You know. But I'm still gna say it mwahaha. I know I'm very whiny but You still hear it right? Yes, I know. Heh. Thank You Lord. xx

And to certain people/persons, I'm sorry that our friendship have been rocky nowadays. I may have taken it for granted, sorry hur. Things may not go back great as before but I still treasure this friendship k. :) x

Okay, getting quite long and complainy. Shucks. Hee. Ok happy stuff! I ate pizza today. Jealous?! WHOOOOOPS :B gna end here k. Bye!

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39./

2012-01-23T01:25:00.001+08:00

Helloz. *smiles*

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, EARTHLINGS. and of cause, God :) hee.

Had my Reunion Dinner over @ Kaima's house. Two rounds of steamboat! #zaikia meow~ full and happy. Gna gain weight this CNY, as usual, :/ meh. Hehe but as what sermon taught, I must serve people from now. Not only CNY, but starting from now onwards. Yepz.

Anyway, th first pix is Meizhu jie's baby, Siwen! Ain't she a QTpie? :3 th second is my newly done cracked nails! Pretty or not? *bhb* cousin had it, so i tried it. Have to remove it when I start working again though.. Shucks. Ok, th third is th Angpao my parents gave! They're so sweet, :') luvthem so much. I'm putting it under my pillow! 压岁钱 hehe.

Alright, gna turn in pretty soon. There's visiting later on, im gna sleep. :) thank God for this family day, xx. Bye!

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38./

2012-01-20T11:04:00.001+08:00

Hi. *:/*

Feeling so guilty now. I forgot to bring my journal so its here. Im sorry, Jackz. :( man, im always like that ugh. God ah, pleaseeee bless me today okay. I feel so guilty la. :(

Anyway, Jarren otw to Genting alrdy. Enjoy bro! :)

Gna go for last min work now. I am so disappointed guilty and sad. Simply cause i know how that feels. Damn, Im really sorry.. Bye!

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37./

2012-01-20T01:01:00.001+08:00

Hi! *winks*

Saw many friends outside school today! Aloysius is one of them. Hehe. Took a photo with him cause we went bbt. So long never talk alrdy.. I miss them know :( nathalie, mavis.. SAW THEM TODAY *WIDE TEETHY SMILE* happy like a balloon! (whut.)

Had outreach today, but failed cause we didnt have surveys.. :( G, please grant us a sense of urgency! Had LG as well! Had a refreshing and great time hearing how G move in people's lives and such. :)

Went Northpoint with Marcus and Ziq after that. Super dead alrdy. Past my workplace and said hi to Veena. Bought dinner @ 925, homed to eat. Ohmy, remind me of supper that day hehe.

*** k, this part for JARRENETHANLEKWEIHAO. You going Genting tml @ 10am! Have a safe trip and come back safely! Spend some time with God and your family kkk! I believe He'll tell you things over there if you really spend quality time with Him. And takecare of Vina hur! :b takecare of yourself too k. Go play th Flying Coaster! 12rm only. Damn fun LOL. Okay, back alrdy text me ok boss! ;) takecarez ! ***

Alright, gna sleep now. Long day tml. Thank G for today :) xx. Bye!

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36./

2012-01-19T02:29:00.001+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

Lemme start off with unhappy stuffs. I was *emo* for a few days. Yes, its sucks real bad. I gotta stand strong man. i know G alrdy hears me. Im definitely waiting. Well, to quote what (sumbodeh) said, it was all what I want. Just that little sentence, huh.. Boooo. I really thank G that im too tired to feel anyth. Obviously, cause its 2.13am alrdy! Xiexie . :)

Okay, i just read a super long blog post from a blogger, Qiuting's blog.( bongqiuqiu.blogspot.com if you wanna know) was about 12000 words or so. LIKE WHAAAAAAAAT?! realised that blogging have more meaning now, heh. Well, i dont have what professional blogs have. But at least I really blog about my life luh, even though it doesnt really matter to people actually :b

Well, it was about QQ shooting back one of her ex-BFF. Go read it if you're really bored. I repeat: REALLLYYYY bored. Not because its not worth your time reading but its really long. Okey, enough of blogreading.

Had work today, super busy today. Well G, i really need to resist/flee from trials eh.. Always remind me of You please. I really wanna be salt and light. I need patience, and self control. Really. Sorry G, for whatever I've done. Grant me those things I need oh Lord. After work, someth a little shocking happened between a couple @ work. I pray that they'll be okay. Its so sudden. Had cheese fries again! Omgosh, by th rate I'm eating like this, I'm gna transform into a pig. THIS IS BAD. Anyway, I'm really hungry now... >< heheh. Walked back with Kass and MQ again. I led him to a longer way hur? :/ whoooopsies. Fellowship, right? LOLWHUT.

I can hear my stomachhh.. Stop growling puhlease. I'm gna sleep hehe. Gna outreach, jog and have LG tomorrow! *jumps a thousand rounds* excited much. Been long since I jogged. G will bless me right ;) i wanna shopshopshop. i havent bought CNY clothes, tbh. Actually I dont have to buy.. Hmm. See how it goes ba.

Alrightz, I said I was gna move on and let go of my past. I pray for motivation and determination. I miss God, honestly. Must really spend time with Him more. So much more.

Okay, if I go on and on, I'll get hungrier. What's for breakfast tomorrow? OKEY SHHHHUSH.

G'night. I love You and you guyzzz. Bye!

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35./

2012-01-14T11:14:00.001+08:00

Hi. *smiles*

otw to service now. Yes , I admit that i broke down yesterday. (like whut, me?!) i did. I'm not bragging about it but that let me depend on God more. I may not recover totally from it, but i get encouragements from G.

Th question is, 'why did he betray me?' but i know that whatever happened just did. He is now hanging out with friends and everyth. And I am, as well. No, i'm not gna show bad examples for my people.

I got reminded that, girls should be strong in front of guys. Dont ever let them think you're pathetic. Because once you open your heart, its not.guarded anymore. You tend to fall more easily and fall in love easier as well.

On twitter, I'll try not to post how.sad i'm feeling or stuffs like that. Cause I want people to see that, girls can be happy as well! As long as we think twice before everyth. (so my girls looking at this, get where i'm coming from hur.)

Alright, IM SO EXCITED FOR SERVICE . KEKE. Next stop's Somerset alrdy. Loveyouguys, :) thanks for supporting me so much. Bye!

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34./

2012-01-13T03:33:00.001+08:00

Hi. (again)

I insist on posting photos, still. I'm pretty self obsessed(not much, just a teeny weeny bit) but it's okay, right? Meh. Ooh that's my side parting yey! Miss it, haven't veen seeing it for a long time. Okay I took a photo with Jojo today too. Love her so much. (see this Jojo) okay i really low battery alrdy. Bye!

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33./

2012-01-13T03:28:00.001+08:00

Hi. *frowns a million times*

Meh. Me still no get over th fact that my post is not uploaded, abcdefg. :( okey at least Laopa read it right. Maybe He'll put it back somehow (abit impossible but wo bu guan la) My wires abit haywire now cause i wanna plop in my bed now. It's calling me yo.

Nevertheless, thank You Daddy for th day. I love You, like th mouse love big rice :) Bye!

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32./

2012-01-13T03:17:00.001+08:00

HI. *FROWNS*

I POSTED A SUPER LONG POST AND IT GOT DELETED. KILLMENOW OMGGGG. :( BYE.

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31./

2012-01-11T01:50:00.001+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

Had CTM today, here are some pictures I took with my new phone hee! *widesmile* ok, th other picture is th one that I just took. That's a picture after me looking through th choices. I'm really stuck though. Really. I need guidance. I feel so deprived of choices. Th courses I want, my points couldn't make it. I've been holding back to say I'm lousy cause I'm not. God gave me those points and I'm gna be faithful with it . :)

Th sad thing about these days are, well, B lied again :O I'm amazed by how things work so.. Yeah. (?) Not that convincing yea? Alright, I still am affected like duh. Sad. Who doesn't when they know that somebody's lying to them heh. But it ain't gna affect anyth of me cause I've my backup; God. Teeheez.

Kor and I talked today. Yes, I really do miss him and papa. Haha. Fishing soon yo!

Meeting Emma and Jarren tml for lunch and dinner respectively. Cant wait for fellowship! ;) God use me, in every way that You can. I'm forever waiting, for You to move in my life.

Working @ 10am tomorrow, *sulking* I'm gna sleep now. So... Bye!

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30./

2012-01-08T22:16:00.002+08:00

Hi! *shivers*

This is my post before th day I got back my O's results. Right now, I FEEL SO TENSED. Yes, veryvery extremely tensed. I wasn't this tense just now cause I dont feel it but it's coming. Boo, this feeling is someth I don't wanna experience again! GaoMing is right, I wasn't even tensed like this when I get back my PSLE result. Ohmanz. Plus, my songs aren't playing now! Gahhhhhh. I'll try to relax cause of th picture I posted.

I changed a new phone! :D Samsung Galaxy S II. Yey. It's quite th same so I didn't really learn how to manage it much. Its white, so extra precious to me now. hehe.

Okay, I believe God will pull me through. It's gna be hard but hey, God overcame th world. :) Looking forward to tml, yet abit of fear. But I know it's all gna be okay. Bye!

29./

2012-01-06T01:44:00.000+08:00

Which?!?!??!?!?!?! :(

28./

2012-01-06T01:26:00.002+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

Firstly, let this post be short. I've been thinking alot quite recently. About my life, sheeps and all. I think I haven't been taking care of my own spiritual life that much.. Which is bad, definitely. Working on that, well Daddy help me :(

Been feeling so wavy recently, or swingy maybe? Controlling my emotions is one of my weakness, that's why tests are always on this point. I will try harder no matter what. I need to, if not I know my life will be upside down. I gotta be more available.

Finishd my show, I guess I need to invest more time in people around me. I've been neglecting them recently. I'm sorry.. Too caught up with myself, G. Give me a pure heart once again. It's.. Really tiring. Mmm..

K One craze is coming back? Heh, their songs and dance are more than idols to me. Admiration! I wanna learn dance so badly.. Passion maybe. Have been a long time. I hope there'll be chances for me. I'll just be happy enough to learn dance! :) But anyway, they are really good! Trust me.

Changing phone soon! iPhone 4S or Samsung Galaxy S2? This isss toughhhhh.. Cracked my brainz. Gna think of this tml instead. I need some sleep right now, if not I'll just die tomorrow. Praying for th best for my O's results on Monday. I know whatever I take back, will be th best for me. ThankYou, Pa. :)

Ohyeah, talked about Christianity to my parents again.. Their "don't wanna believe" mindset is super strong, but that ain't gna stop me. To th end with G, xx. Bye!

27./

2012-01-02T01:29:00.002+08:00

Hi! *winks*

Happy New Year, 2012! :)

Had a great time counting down together with NEA, spending time together. Was at Nex! Heeh, :) I missed th last train towards my cousin's house, so daddy fetched me. I receive some surprising texts from kor! :B haha. Alright, then slept around 4, woke up @ 5.30am or so to go home. Then woke up for lunch, and work. Got a little scolding today, dampened my mood for a little. Prayed to Daddy in th toilet and felt much better! ;) Some ridiculous thing happened just now, which made me really angry and hdisappointed but, G dont want me to be that way huh?

Over @ J's house for steamboat again! Always steamboat, great. Ky went back after I came. Managed to end my 1st January 2012 with Jessicaongz. She should be honoured! Ohyeah. Gotta go home now, cause I really need some sleep. Bye!

26./

2011-12-28T01:07:00.004+08:00

Hi. *smiles*

-Cut-

In within all these feelings, I have to cling on You. I need You. I'll think before I post. I will. Daddy, dont leave me ever. Dont. I know You wont, I really thank You :')

I have to keep my heart in check. Closed up from Satan, open to You.

" Holy Spirit come in power, change my heart.

I want to live for You, my God.

Let Your Spirit come in power, change my life.

That I may live for You my Lord, fall on us Lord."

I need to STOP BEING THIS WAY. I think its really annoying too. It's stupid. You're all that I want. More than anything. More!

I felt so much better, so much. :')

Quit those, start anew. Bye!

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Edited this post, decided that I shouldn't be this way. I'm not setting an example like that. Bye!

25./

2011-12-26T15:24:00.002+08:00

Hi! *winks*

Had a Christmas quite differently this year! Went for Christmas lunch with my family over @ a Japanese foodcourt, Shabu Shabu Steamboat :) Awesome. Went home after that and knocked out on my bed around 4+pm. I WOKE UP AT 9+PM. My day was gone, :( But still, thank God for th day. Slept around 3+am, after my show :B

Gna work later on at 5pm, its until 10pm today, yeah! Wednesday is housekeeping retreat, really hope work don't clash with it. Ohyea, I think I really should keep my expectations low, even gone. Because I really will be happier if I don't expect so much. I won't get so much disappointments and such. Shall keep on with this mentality huh? That conversation with that person last night was a surprise, yet I expected th result (oooops, expectations again), but it was yesterday! Heh. Still no solution, but its good to just see each other being happy. Words are sometimes too much to handle. So, don't say anyth if you don't mean it yo, :)

Is today a Public Holiday? If it is, I'm getting doublepay! *crossfingers* 12/hr, really hope I do have it. I heard V is gna be our Supervisor till January, really pray that I don't make mistakes if not I'm just gna die. But G still loves me, hoho.

Th wind is strong today too, so cooling. Sometimes, I wish I had th time just to go out alone to th beach and enjoy th breeze, along with some thinkings and thoughts. Someday, I will! Okay, this week if there's any day that I'm not working night shift, I AM GNA GO FOR A JOG. I'm desperate for one, haven't been running for long due to my knee! But God will bless cause I'm exercising k. :)

*stretches* Alright, going for a bath now, prepare for work. Bye!

24./

2011-12-26T01:17:00.001+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

Merry Christmas to all! Even if its over, but Jesus isnt over yo :) Christmas to me, I really wanna recommit myself to Him once again, but it cant be empty words. I have to rely on Him more. So much more. :)

Have been emotional this days. I know what is it about. Its been a really long time.. I really want it to be okay. I need to do someth about it. I'm gna get myself not to be so into it. Whatever is said, tweeted, done, it shouldn't bother me now. I'll do my best to really stand strong, simply because I've my Daddy ^^ y'know, if it wasn't for Him, I wouldn't have found strength to get through all these.

I may not know what's coming next, relationships, studies, life, anything. But I know its always safe with God. I may not have a faith as strong as others, but I want to grow. :) no matter who I'll be with in th end, its th best for me. Oh man I'm still too young to think if all these. Hee.

Anyway, here's an update of what awesome stuffs happened yesterday, Christmas Eve! Service was awesomeamazing! Nexus was so pretty :) God moved so much, many people accepted Him. So touched. Party was next! Had fun carolling and fellowshipping! This will be my last Christmas in youth :( how sad huh? :'( but Christmas is about th birthday Boy, Jesus! Ohyeah!

This post is getting long, I was supposed to post on Christmas but its okay, hehe. Alright, gna watch Channel 8 again. Bye!

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23./

2011-12-23T03:27:00.001+08:00

Hello! *winks*

First thing, I'm sorry G, :( I really really REALLY need to think twice about stuffs I post. Whether are they bringing glory to God or even setting good examples for my sheeps and friends. No, I can't be th same like how I used to be. I need to forgive. I'm really sorry God. Even if that issue haunts me, I'll try my best to overcome it. Because after all, it's all th past and gone with th wind.

Anyway, having MLG later. Excited much! ;) really wanna expand G's territory! I wanna do so much more, starting from myself.

#notetoself: SELF-CONTROL

I guess that's th most important Fruit of th Spirit right now, for me. How am I gna set a good example to people wheb I haven't displayed it myself? I need to be more matured and less childish now. I need to grow. Desperate for growth. Breakthrough. Not by words, but faith and through prayers.

Lastly, I'm really sorry Daddy. And thank You so much for You grace and mercy that saved me today. I can't thank You enough for letting me know what You did for me. I love You. :)

I haven't been blogging for quite some time. I want to have this habit of journalling. Then maybe when I pass on, my life can be accountble to people around me. Ha! Just a joke, but I really want to.

I'm sorry Lord for th things I've made it, but its all about You. Bye!

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2011-12-14T01:46:00.002+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

Back from KAIROS camp with a blastt! Thank God so much for that time spent with Him. This time, He spoke to me in a really different way. Kind of like, He asked me to think what I've been doing. Even though I didn't feel as much as th previous camp, but I still gained things out of it. This was just what I wanted. :) Didn't get to talk to a lot of people I wanted to, but I still thank God for talks and meet ups I had with people.

Its 2.22am now, I can't get to sleep, I guess this was one of the post-camp effects! Adding on with my runny nose and sore throat, and some minor injuries here and there, makes up most of th post camp effects. I loved them, because God gave them to me to remind me of camp :P

Okay, I went to work today. Was really tired out and stuffs. But nevertheless, I thank God for people who spoke to me and made my day fun hehe. Jack told me quite many things :) I got free cheese fries after that! MFM fries are nice alright! ;) Had a meeting after that, came home early, about 11.30pm. I had time lag after camp, it felt like 8+ when I was back.

Many things went through my mind today, but I still really stand in awe of God. I wanna continue to wait upon You, Daddy. Cause You made me understand life, made me can't live without You. I dont know why people don't understand, but I understand that I love You. So so much, :) I pray that I wont give You 90%, but a 100% cause You gave me your 100%.

I really really, surrender to You. You, really changed my life God. <3

Jesus Christ is th same today, tomorrow and forevermore :') Bye!

21./

2011-12-09T09:28:00.002+08:00

Hi! *waves*

Firstly.. IM SOOO EXCITED FOR CAMPZ :D Cant wait to see how God is gna move in my walk with Him. I wanna feel Him more, and really grow myself to be th person He want me to be. I wanna have that child-like faith once again :)

Someth not very good happened yesterday, I know I've got to be stronger than that. God put this situation right before camp, there's bound to be a reason for this timing. I'll let go, let God. This decision may be th best one.. It may hurt, but I'm going to be okay. Even though I really will be heartbroken, but I'm sure God will make a way. After all, I was th one who caused everything to be so bad, right? :(

Anyway, enough of th EMO NEMO side. I went to th doctor's two days back, about my knee. It was some longlong name i dont know. I cant run, walk, climb stairs, bend too much :( okay going for camp now, bye!

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2011-12-06T20:24:00.001+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

Had coreteam prayermeet this morning over @ Jojo's house. Refreshed my mind. Slacked a little while with Meiyi then went back home. Took a small nap and met Joel. He grown so much taller. Ha ha.

Saw a couple arguing and I guess they broke up. Reminded me of many things. God bless you guys.

Day was quite relaxing, coming with a little sian-ness! :(

Gna buy dinner now. Bye!

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2011-12-05T23:53:00.001+08:00

Hi! *stares*

Homesweethome. :)

One word to describe today when I came back: DISAPPOINTED

Heh, didn't feel like coming back to SG at all. Its true that I hate facing reality because it takes me hard, but I have to. Of cause I have to. Life don't get easier but much fuller with disappointments and all. But accepting is another challenge. Yeah, sometimes I really feel frustrated at th many obstacles God is throwing me with, but I gotta be stronger than this. God have th 'Vivien' He created in mind, and He's moulding me slowly. (:

No matter how disappointing things are, I pray that God will pull me through. Its so hard, Daddy.. But show me how to do it with You. Only You wont fail, no matter how close people are to me. They fail as well, but You wont. Take heart cause You overcame th world~! :)

One of th reasons I didn't feel like coming back because I didn't wanna text at all. It makes me worst. Ha ha, if I don't reply, I just didn't feel like replying. No hard feelings, just little thoughts. (wlao like haolian only sia hahaha :P)

Ever wondered what if someday, I received this? "New Text Message: Jesus" Honestly, I'll have millions of things to say, but I will get stuck. :( sigh, Daddy, lead me to You, closer and nearer. Please. I love You.

I dislike disappointments.. But everyone have to face them. I am no exception. Daddy, just let me have Your expectations than my own. Take control of me :') show yourself more to me.

Okay, I need some peace. Bye!

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2011-12-05T03:07:00.001+08:00

Hi! *waves*

Second day in Genting. Actually I spent much time walking around and stuffs like that heh. I have many pictures(maybe not that many) to post. Each tells a story heh. But here's what I did to my hair when I was bored! Ignore my face please :$

My mom really thought I was wearing a headband, ha! Its still cooling up here in th highlands. Its 3am now and its freezing. Okay, maybe just more cooling than usual.

Went on a search for soveineirs today, I'm sorry if I didn't get any gifts for anyone because its really hard to get gifts here :(

Alright, post more when I'm back @ home! :)

P/S: Sorry Lord, :( bye!

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2011-12-03T18:47:00.001+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

I am @ Starbucks again(for its wifi!) hee. Its 15°C out here. Th clouds in th morning are beautiful! :) awesome right? Went for breakfast then slept for about 3 hours! Caught Puss in Boots 3D! I like th maturity of th storyline.

Arcade drained all my sists and my money. Aww. :(

okay I shall be self obsessed these 3 days >:) its rather cold now, but I was shivering in th morning! Gna head back to hotel soon though.

Ohyea, caught a dance crew performing at th lobby of my hotel. They're truly enjoying ther performance, that's what made me give a second look. Two passersby came out to dance as well, rare sight.

Okay, shall blog about my loooong life story again later/tomorrow! Bye!

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2011-12-03T06:08:00.001+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

At genting now! Continue ltr!

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2011-11-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

Hi.

Randomly, I just think that people who are close to me might not know how I feel exactly. They don't realise that sometimes th reason why I get disappointed is cause of them.

Thats why God is awesome. DaddyG, talk to me! :( I'm waiting patiently.. Bye!

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2011-11-28T21:19:00.001+08:00

Hello... *pouts*

First day of work, I'm barely surviving. What am I gna do? Gosh :( it's so tough. Save me, Daddy G.

Had first shepherding with my sheeps too. :) thank God!

Oh, I saw my brother, Youcheng! :D I was so happy, but was really lethargic. Supposed to meet him and daddylek after shepherding but I was really worn out and tired physically and mentally.

It seems to be a bad start today, carrying over all my emotions from yesterday. It sure made me worst, but I wanna overcome them. Days are gna be harder. Thank God for Jon :) what happened to me? Ohman that shouldn't be th way. God, I need You more. More than yesterday. More than words can say. IloveYou G, <3

I need to survive. Bye!

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2011-11-27T19:13:00.001+08:00

Hi.

Thank God for th day, even though there are really many things that disappoint me today. Ever felt that piercing feeling in your heart? That was how I felt today. I have no idea why, I just couldn't go on being this way. It didn't feel good at all. No no, things are getting way too much.

I should not care. Not at all. God, can You tell me what to do other than crying my heart out? I really wanna be more like You. I want more of You and less of me. I'm really trying. But i can't help it when I kept experiencing things that break my heart again and again. I know it shouldn't be my intentions but God.. Help me, save me. I'm crying out to You real bad. I don't wanna talk to anyone at all. Why? Daddy, help me..

I used to be so emotional on blog posts, but I don't want to. Because I want to look back on my life and be happy and grateful to it. But humans have sad and hurtful days too.. I guess today is th breaking point of my time huh? It hurts so bad.

Everyday can't go so well because if we have comfortable lives, we won't need God. At th end of th day, I still wanna thank God for being so faithful even when they fail me, when people fail me. Thanks Daddy G, You really never fail me all th time and carrying so much of my grumbles and cries :x hee xiexie, meluvyou. :)

I know this road ain't easy, people are hard to give up, hard to change. But I'm in their lives for a reason, I wont give up, only when God asks me to give up on them. Bye!

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2011-11-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

Hello! *smiles*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABYYYYY HAHAHAH. (Th middle cutie LOL.)
Hope you enjoyed your birthday dear!

Over @ J's house right now. 12.31am! Yes, ky's birthday's over. Love them both so much! Awaiting to more meetings with them :)

Gna go home now, so tired! There's service tomorrow! Excited heart. Bye!

x

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2011-11-25T20:51:00.001+08:00

Hi! *smiles*

Had a greattttt day today! Went for NEA day and learnt much. Thank God so much for giving me such a cute-loving spiritual family :) had NE training after that, then I had to go off.

Gna have steamboat later @ J's house! Awesome. Mom disagreed when I wanted to stay over :( *sigh* ohwell, I was angry. But I shouldnt yeah? I will come back after eating then, :)

Things have been going quite okay for me. Starting work next week @ Manhattan's! Goodluck to me. Bye!

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2011-11-24T20:56:00.001+08:00

Yo! *smiles*

A fruitful and tiring day today! Had LG and celebrated LX's birthday. Told both of my sheeps that I'm their shepherd too! So happy and looking forward to grow with them :)

Leg has been problematic these days.. Can't describe how it feels like but it certainly doesn't feel good.. Watching a show of Komodo dragons now, they are ferocious and venomous! Didn't know that. Hee.

Okay, gna celebrate ky's birthday at 12am later! Surprising her at her doorstep! Hope it succeeds. Bye!

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2011-11-23T20:23:00.001+08:00

Hi! *wave*

Okay thats my pouting face. Because I'm so tired todayyy! Was doing lx's board and sheeps' cards! So excited to pass it to them tml during Lifegroup! :) plus, its combined NEA2 HEE. happygirl95.

Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVELY MOMMY! Gna dedicate this portion to you. Thank you for your patience and really loving me so much! I wouldnt be here without you mom. :) ai ni!

Gna go for dinner with my whole family later! Cant wait. Alright, I shall go and prepare now lest I get scolded again. Bye!

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2011-11-22T21:41:00.002+08:00

Hi! *winks*

I got angry, ohno. :( Just dont like how words are offensive. Nobody can really accept each other fully, only God. :)

Its not that I'm bad, its th society that's ugly. Bye!

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2011-11-22T18:25:00.003+08:00

Hi! *winks*

Man, I'm not bored but I'm stuffed with soooo many thoughts. I gotta sort em' out before it gets all over me. >> :(

Anyway, I need to start writing Christmas cards! Ohyey. Because I dont wanna rush last minute again.

*Praying that there will be no awkward moments when I give a card and they are surprised I wrote them one* Forget it if you dont get it. Ha! My checklist is gna be a loooooooong one. Ohyeah, I didn't have my nap in th end. Got hooked up in front of my desktop again. Grr, I wanna sleep! :/

Heard that BIGBANG'S going to MAMA? I'm gna faint, ha. :3 okay, no more whining. Bye!

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2011-11-22T17:27:00.001+08:00

OMG. *stares*

OMGOMGOMGOMG. Know what's my number one fear?

COCKROACHS. C-O-C-K-R-O-A-C-H-E-S.

Gosh, I was forced to catch a dead one. Yes, I'm afraid of dead ones toooo!! x.x KILLMENOW.

*Panic attack*

Ok, show's over. Calmed down. Bye!

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2011-11-22T16:17:00.002+08:00

Hello! *winks*

I wanna try and blog everyday if I can. Heh! Its good journalling my life in a blog because I can read back and laugh at myself. I did it on my previous blog - reading every post since.. Primary 5! It was super epic. Ha ha.

Well, new start new start! :) Realised that all my(nono, most) friends are either overseas or working. Either than church friends. Bjorn's in malaysia, clique in school are mostly working/looking for a job. Everyone grown up. Great thing though.

Went for CTM in th morning, was late(as usual). This is bad, really bad. I must change. Have been lazy these days.. Came home, felt th warmth of my whole family! ♥ ThankYou God.

Having mixed feelings recently, I dont know what are those because of, but definitely there's someth in my mind. Not gna brush it off anymore, just gna ask for answers. Its affecting me one way or another, it cant go on.. Build up myself again!

K, I wanna take a nap now. *yawns* Bye!

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2011-11-21T21:21:00.002+08:00

Miahhhhhhhhh :(

I'm so disappointed. That talk just ruined my day. I was waiting then.... It all came. Well, understanding is hard to get. Ah, wait. Nonono, you cant do that. I need to guard my heart. :)

I'll get throughhhhh thisssssss. Keke.

Anticipating (yet dreading) what will be said next. Grrrr. Bye!

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2011-11-21T20:08:00.003+08:00

Hello! *winks*

Thank God for His grace! I got that job :) Even though th pay is not what I really wanted, its sufficient for me. Thank God for Jonathan too heh, that funny neighbour/brother of mine.

Met my mom after that for dinner, then sist. Relaxing day though! Peace, I'm so bloated right now. :/

Peace out yo. Bye!

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2011-11-21T15:31:00.002+08:00

Olah~ *winks*

Oops, I forget to say that I can blog many posts in a day. Heeh.

I like th weather now. Cooling and.. Bright(?) Its awesome for a beach walk! But I guess I'm too lazy to even move from my desktop desk. *sigh*

Just finished listening to a sermon by Larry Lafrenieve. (I dont know how to pronounce it) LE-FREN-NEEVE? Its 'Purpose of Fasting'. ~~Quite~~ Very applicable to me right now. Yey. God's great, Amen! Had a whole lot of change in perspective of fasting now. Thank God for it.

Going for my interview soon! I hope I can realllllyyyyy get through. Praypraypray (a million times) I want it so badly. Actually I cant think of why I want it but, I guess its cause its near my house.

Alright, shall head to th toilet to bathe now. Bye!

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2011-11-21T12:35:00.000+08:00

Hello! *winks*

Let me start off with, why I started this blog.
I cant really write a lot in Tumblr, cause its mostly pictures! Heh. So I need a space for me to writeeeeeeee my life. Im lazy to journal it on pen too. Anyway, just came back from Cousin's birthday chalet! That was th best chalet I went to so far, because th layout of it is nice :)

Here are some pictures!

Th outside of it! (Not clear at all lol) ^

Looks more like a home! ^

See that little shade there? Yes, i watch my shows there. Comfy~ ^

Oh this is amazing. See that door in th toilet? ^

This is what's inside! OMG. ^

My two sweeties sound asleep :) Taking care of them may be tough sometimes. Haha. ^

Oh, this is my 1am supper (?) ^

Its so disheartening to think that I'm putting on weight recently :( Well, its okay.

I'm going for a job interview today @ Yishun's Manhattan Fish Market. Just got news that it may not be hiring anymore, but I still gotta try.. Cause I need a job THAT badly, gosh.

Praying that things will go well. Bye!